Harold will be having surgery in a couple of weeks. The oncologist will be removing several nodes and one from behind his chest wall. I am TERRIFIED that when they roll him into surgery that will be the last time I ever see him awake again. He will have a drain because of that specific one. So far of all the ones that he's having removed that one scares most I am terrified they are going to take him back and I am never going to see him awake again